What comes after healing?

It’s 2018, I’m sitting in my childhood bedroom working from home when I find myself staring into the abyss.

It’s been a few years since I had my biggest spiritual awakening to date.

And although that sounds magical, it felt more like a mental breakdown than anything close to an awakening. (more on that another time)

For context, check out yesterday’s post here - https://www.marinabayyoga.com/blog/is-yoga-better-than-therapy

Anyways…. I’m staring into the abyss when I find myself asking this question, “what’s the point of healing?”

You see, I had spent the last two years in a deep dive of personal development work, self healing tools, and yoga to feel better, to heal… but feeling “better” now seemed like a too simplistic goal. What else was available?

Healing for the sake of healing is beautiful, but chasing healing started to seem like another hamster wheel that would inevitably leave me burned out again.

“What’s next?” started to blare in my brain.

And this is what hit me… “FULLNESS OF LIFE.”

I didn’t need to only focus on healing, because most of my pain WAS healed. Now I would just be digging at scars.

Since that didn’t sound like any fun, I started focusing on what “fullness of life” meant to me.

I started saying yes to the dreams on my heart…

Traveling

Dating

Taking on more responsibility at work

Leading a team

Becoming a yoga teacher

Along the way, I realized that so many people wait to make their dreams come true because they are scared of HOW it’s all going to work out. Maybe it’s because I faced my own demise a few years earlier, but I wasn’t willing to wait another moment to see what was possible in this lifetime.

BUT, I knew I wanted to do it differently.

This time, I would make my dreams come true from a place of peace, in a sustainable way… no more burn out, no more chronic stress…

(to be continued)