The End of an Era

I said goodbye to my ride of die today.

She drowned in the flood and is past revival.

She was with me through so much. And honestly, it feels silly that I’m having this moment. But here I am, having this moment. Choosing to be fully here. Experiencing it all.

She was a black Honda Accord.

I drove her around Boston to and from my first big girl job at Rue La La.

I scraped the snow off her through the biggest snow storm Boston had ever seen. And then drove her to my favorite fashion job I ever worked, TJX.

She was the one I drove back to Houston in when I decided it was time to move to India.

The same black Honda that was waiting for me when I came home from Malaysia unexpectedly.

The black Honda I drove to Colorado to start what I thought would be the beginning of happily ever after.

And the same black Honda that held me and kept me safe to escape a very unhappily ever after.

I don’t know how to explain it but for some time it was just me, her, yoga, and ocd. They were the most consistent things in my life.

I lost her a couple weeks ago in Storm Nicholas. It’s true, she’s just a car, but so may critical moments happened for me in that car.

It’s where I was when I told my mom I was quitting my corporate job to lead a training school in India. It’s the only place I felt safe during the abusive relationship. It’s where I would pour out my heart to the Universe and find the strength to keep going. It’s where I laughed with my best friends and sung Taylor Swift songs until we lost our voices. It’s where friends opened up about struggles and pains they were facing. It held secrets of so many heart. And inside jokes of even more. It was my ride to the first 100+ hours I taught of yoga, taking me all over Houston to see this dream come alive.

I went to clean it our today and here’s my whole point. Here’s what I’m getting to….

Almost everything was moldy. Just trashed. My favorite LLBean bag that has a lifetime warranty was destroyed. The yoga mats were moldy. The artwork I was going to get framed was soaked and the paint was bleeding.

I have the choice to carry it with me into my new car, into this new era, or leave it. Let it go and begin again. Right here, right now. I can bring the moldy shit that was once so important or I can let it be and enjoy the new. Enjoy was is.

We don’t always have these opportunities and metaphors handed to us so clearly. I got lucky today.

Today I got to decide to let go of not only the moldy bag and wet artwork. I got the opportunity to let go of the thoughts and habits that are no longer serving me.

Now, I have trained my brain to think this way. My mind didn’t immediately go here for no reason. I help lead clients to letting go of what’s no longer serving them several times a day, most days of the week. This is a practice that I know transforms the heart. So when the metaphor presented itself, I was eager to take the opportunity, because I know, and I mean, I KNOW, it will serve me to let go of something. To clear the clutter.

So what clutter did I clear today?

Moldy yoga mat - restricting my creativity

Wet/bleeding artwork - fear of what I cannot control

A lifetime warranty bag - security in ‘staying the same’ (or not evolving)

The work you do for your mental health is a daily exercise. Just like if you want to keep your body mobile and feeling good, you move a little every day. You get out of it what you put into it. Few people live with a six pack they didn’t work for.

You too can take this moment to let go of something that is no longer serving you. You don’t need to lose your car in a flood to have this moment. You can choose it for yourself.

If your mind feels like a thrift store covered wall to wall, this is your opportunity to clear the clutter.

Exhale.

Think about one thing that is no longer serving you and decide in this moment to let it go. (It may even be tangible!)

For the next 24 hours, when the temptation to take it back arises, practice letting it go again. Allow yourself compassion and kindness as you release it. Over and over. And make the decision not to go back there. To that thing, thought, situation that is no longer serving your highest good.

Inhale.

After you release, you receive. Take your thoughts back to self love.

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- Kasidy Kersey, the yoga teacher for mental health

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(I am not a psychologist, I do not diagnose or prescribe, please consult your doctor about any changes to your prescription/plan.)